It is has been a really stressful week. I have had my granddaughter, Kylianna, all week and she has been ill, so my main focus has been on her. Received bad news about my mom's health, the doctor's have told her there isn't anything else they can do except keep her comfortable, her heart is contracting but not expanding back out as it needs to. I noticed yesterday that her mind is starting to slip, she is repeating the same questions over and over again. I understand that we are only here on this earth for a short while, yet it still is upsetting, hurts, causes anger and a range of other emotions to have to watch someone suffer and know that there isn't anything you can do.
It is Sunday morning and all I want to do is hide away in my room, Kylianna is with her mom for the next two days and I have to go back to work this week after being off for a month for my own illness. Yet, hiding away is not an option. So today I am going to be working on playing catch up in my housework and school work. My clean laundry is piling up at the end of the bed. I am behind in class and I am starting to really stress out about it. I know that if I set my mind to just doing things they will get done, yet right now I feel overwhelmed. I need to try to relax and focus my mind. I will try our exercises and see if they will help center me. Wish me luck!
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Melody,
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about both your mom and graddaughter. It is very hard to watch people you love suffer and decline physically and mentally. I don't know how religious you are, but everything is done for a reason. It can be hard and stressful, you may get angry but at this point, you have to be strong for them. They need you and I know that you will grow from this experience. Good luck and I will pray for you and your family.
HI there Melody,
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about your situation. I can empathize with you about getting stressed out with people around you ill and not feeling good yourself. Then, you add school on top of it and it just gets overwhelming. What I have to do is take 20 minutes out for myself just to clear my head and do nothing. This is when I usually meditate. If something pops in my head when I am lying there I dismiss it immediately. I know how hard it is to find time for yourself. Sometimes, we even feel selfish doing it. However, you have to take care of yourself first. I know as women and mothers we tend to neglect ourselves. I hope this helps you find some inner peace. Take care!