Now, the Ending and the Beginning

With the ending of this term with Kaplan signifies to me the ending of ceaseless thoughts and worries, it is now the beginning of something new. I am now aware of how to take the negative and turn it into a positive, I now know that I can accept myself, the events of my life and the people in it with loving-kindness. Once again I am reminded that the events of life are placed in your life for a reason. I have also came to realize that these events can and do make a person stronger. Over the last two weeks this has hit home more so than ever.

Trying to help someone and being turned against has made me realize that you can't help everyone, some people do not want to be helped. My heart is sad but I know the only thing that I can do is send out prayers and loving kindeness toward this person and hope that one day they will see that even if there isn't a cure for mental illness they can live a better life. At this point I would say that I have slide back a little in spirituality to a 6 due to the sadness in my heart.

Psychologically, I am still at an 8. I realize that because I could not help this one person that it does not mean that I won't be able to help someone else. I still feel in my heart and soul that as long as I can help one person than all of the hours spent losing sleep due to studying, and trying to juggle life will have been worth it, for me the reward is seeing someone's life changing from darkness into a world filled with color.

As of today mentally I am also at an 8, I do not doubt what I am learning or the reason for my learning about health and wellness. The only reason I give myself an 8 is due to realizing that I have so much more to learn that will increase my mental strength and soul.

My goals for each aspect of mental, psychological and spirituality will always be a work in progress. I will always continue to seek knowledge of not only myself but for the benefit of others as well. Exercising needs to be worked on as now I am still trying to adjust to a new work schedule, thankfully I still have my dogs that have to be walked several times a day. Prayer comes everyday even if it is just to look up at the heavens and say "thank you for this life". Mentally, I will and do try to keep my mind sharp not only calm to where I can focus but active as well through my studies and through games that enhance the memory and concentration.

This class has empowered me with a sense of self and reaffirmed that to take care of yourself and love yourself is just as vital for life as taking care of others. To help with others and see their changes to the end one must start at the beginning, within yourself.